OMG I have missed doing this soooo much! First of all, hello, how are you doing? Thank you for still wanting to read my deserted blog haha. Lots have been happening ever since my last post (I feel like I’ve said this statement before.. anyways, *checks the date of the last post*), which is in May. 5 months… Yep, definitely a lot. I would have recapped how my summer was but it feels so long ago that I only remember a thing or two. Also, with the semester that has only been a month since it started, I have felt and went through a lot emotionally.
Just to remind you, and myself, I am taking a Chemical Engineering major in University of Minnesota Twin Cities. I’m in my Junior year now. Things are getting serious. And of course, since I like observing people, I’ve noticed students/classmates in my major that are taking it very seriously too. We had a career fair around two weeks into the semester, to those interested in looking for opportunities, like internships and jobs, and exploring companies that are looking for students in certain fields. I forced myself to go and although it gave me A LOT (and I’m not exaggerating) of pressure because it involved talking and showing yourself off to people, I learned a few things that I needed to improve on communication-wise and career-wise.
Another thing, I’ve just finished a few of my exams, with another one coming up in three days. What have I experienced so far? That I need to constantly motivate myself. There was a time, a couple of weeks ago, it got to a point where I was too tired to motivate myself and I ended up just bawling my eyes out because I was too tired. Emotionally tired. I don’t know why I’m writing this here but I just feel like letting it out. Nevertheless, I’m truly grateful to have some friends that are willing to support me, alhamdulillah.
Since that day (or ‘those days’ to be exact), I started realizing some things:
- That I shouldn’t be worrying about how good people are and how bad I am
- That people have their own pace and so do I
- That I should learn to take a break once in a while
- That there are some things that I should not worry about because I can’t do anything about, acknowledge them and accept things the way they are
- That instead of worrying too much, focus on what you’re actually doing
- That I should find things to be grateful of because *wink wink* “With every hardship comes ease”.
I just noticed that most of my problems come from worrying. Oh well.
I think this is all I have to talk about write now. Sometimes, it’s these things that I’m going through that make me occasionally burst to write. I hope it’s not too long.
Anyways, I hope you’re all having a good day. If you managed to learn/realize a thing or two from this post, that’s amazing 🙂
p/s hippo campus released a new album two weeks ago. it’s veryyy different from what they’ve been doing but i got used to it haha. will see them live in november!! 😀